Snow

So we've had not snow at all this winter up until yesterday. It started slushing a little Saturday night. Cohen got excited and ran out side looking a little provocative...

Saddly it was a false alarm, and Cohen went to bed dissapointed. Although sure enough we woke up to a light blanket of snow that he very much enjoyed, have a look;

                                                               We made a snowman;)

                                                                  Had a snowball fight

                                                            Sweet callums first snow

                                                              "I LOVE SNOW!!"

<3

Depression

So this post is mostly just me venting to anonymous, so if your don't care for whiny teenagers i suggest you leave now...

Anyways I've recently lost all my friends  that i used to be really close with. It's made me isolate myself. I have a hard time making friends and talking to people, but having friends always boosted my confidence so i could talk to people and come off as outgoing... or obnoxious. I don't know.

 Although now i just cant seem to muster up enough courage to make a new friend. i hate it i feel alone and its getting tougher to go through adolescence alone.

I have a boyfriend, Abel. He is my only true friend that i can actually be my 100% self with. I hate saying this because i don't want to sound like i don't appreciate him.... but sometimes a girl just needs her girlfriends.

 I have to say there are a few girls who are making the effort to reach out and be my friend. They invite me out and over to sleepovers. At first it sounds really fun and i get excited.. although as the event gets closer i ALWAYS back out. It's like just before i freak myself out and it just doesn't sound  as fun anymore, and i always end up being the one missing out.

I'm so tired of it but i cant change. Nothing is fun anymore and I'm sad. I hate saying that but i really am. I just wish i could stop being so dependent on other people. Like my old friends used to be my comfort blanket and now Abel is. I want to be happy and be responsible for it.

 I've turned completely anti social and people hate me... its making me hate myself. I have soo much to say and no one to say it to. I just want a friend, i WANT to be able to open up to or relate to people. I want out.

Cohen Alert!

 Two years old and full of happiness love and energy... especially energy.
Just an update on Cohen;

All tuckered out

We love cousin Cameron

Being a creep

Decorating his sissy

Being a creep again..

playing with brother

Christmas present from sissy

They were actually fighting over this toy..

but you'd never know.

He's superman...

...And a monster

He's pretty funny too....

I. LOVE.HIM.

Movie date

What better way to get your mind off things than spending a little time with your best friend? That's exactly what i did. but first let me introduce you to him. Blogger this is Abel...

Charming, isn't he?

I think so too.

To end winter break he decided to take me to go see " New Years Eve".

and while we waited we decided to test out my camera

Were very photogenic.

Clearly.

What can i say, we're best friends.

 

Hello Holidays

So as we all know the holiday season has come and gone, fatty foods, Christmas music,money spent, and LOTS of family time. If your like me you appreciate it all but cant complain that its over.

Here's a look at how my holidays were celebrated;

  This is my younger brother Cohen he's two years and spoiled beyond his little hearts content (as you can see). He's also the apple of my eye, so you'll be seeing lots of him.

Then there's my even younger brother Callum, this Christmas was his first and as you can see. He LOVED it.

And lastly me and Kendra (younger sister) waiting for my dad to finish appreciating his gift...

                                    He loooved his pressure washer.......
                        (Thanks mom)
                                     

So despite that I'm now broke and fat from the holiday season i cant complain, it was worth the family time<3